Okay, so I may not be completely out of this first try. I've had a few symptoms in the past week that make me think there is a good possibility that I might just have done it on round 1. Some symptoms are a little embarrassing and something one should only tell their sister so we'll just keep those under wraps. But the big one that I am still holding out on is that I still haven't started a new cycle. Yep, nada, nul, zero, zip, not a drop. It really is a very small hope but something that I am going to hold dear until it is time to let go. If I haven't started a new cycle by Feb. 14th (like I need another reason to be sad on Valentine's Day) then I will test again. Who knows, maybe I'll be lucky.
Other than that little bit of hope, I'm feeling pretty good. I've started to get into into my year of more. I've been trying to really reach deeper in myself to tell the stories that need to be told, to work hard on my AE class, to seek out new opportunities for growth, to open up to people outside my little circle of confidants and to embrace who I am.
I can't choose everything in my life, what I do or don't want to happen to me, but I can surely give it a better chance by at least trying. So, I'm going to be shedding my fears, resentments and insecurities one at a time. Hopefully what I find underneath will be my strengths, my joys and my fulfillment.
I'm bellydancing again, even if it is just at home. I've got more classes lined up in the next couple of months. I'm thinking about going back and doing another round of speed dating. I am keeping my options open for the opportunities that are out there.
So, February I'm ready...tell me something good.
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How late are you? I think you should take another test, like, right now. Sometimes the hormone levels are two low those first couple of days to register positive on the pee test. But if I'm calculating this right, your about 2 weeks late, take another one :)
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