Best Surprise EVER!

Best. Surprise. EVER!!!!!! As I was texting with Seth tonight I hear a key in the door. And then...there he was!!!!!! He totally flew back from Montana after 1 day there with his parents. Okay, I want to be super flattered that he couldn't stand to be away from me, but in reality he got a call from work that he didn't turn in all his paperwork for leave so it was come back and fill out the paperwork or get the axe. But it totally meant that I got to see him, have dinner with him and have him all to myself for a night before he goes back to Montana for Thanksgiving.

Seth is a constant, good surprise. I adore him. He keeps me on my toes. He makes me laugh. He makes me cry tears of joy. I feel the most like myself when I am with him. And, when I get surprises like tonight, it makes me think that I am possibly the LUCKIEST woman in the world. The more I know him, the more I like him and the deeper my love of him grows. He is the man I want to raise children with, to go through hard times with, to grow old with.

So tonight, while he works for a few hours, I will write this blog and say a thousand thank you's to the universe. And when he comes home and I have a few more precious hours with him I will enjoy every second of that time. And when he leaves for Montana tomorrow, I will eagerly look forward to his return and to spending our lives together.

A Whole New Baby Adventure Begins

It has been about 7 months since my last attempt at baby making. So, it is about time I get started again. Afterall, I'm certainly not getting any younger. This time around, I'm trying something different. This time around I am trying to get pregnant the most natural of ways - with a man that I adore.

This is not what I had planned on, but I'm much more excited to be on this adventure of love and motherhood now. It is completely different to be trying to make a baby with someone that I love and respect. Reading a descriptive list of a donor just seems to pale in comparison to having a conversation. It is much more fun to be talking about naming a child (even when we disagree) with someone that has a vested interest than it does to be working on the perfect name by myself.

I love that I can talk to Seth and wonder about whether our baby will have those great eyebrows or make those same expressions when he laughs. And I wonder if baby will get his nose or my nose. Is baby going to have a personality that is more laid back like Seth or more wound up like me? I could go on and on.

Mostly, I am just thankful that I have such a wonderful guy in my life that wants to give me a baby. And even more lucky that he likes me.

My full and happy heart

It is amazing how a week can change your life. One week...seven days...168 hours.

Last week, I met Seth. Ah, Seth. No one has ever touched my heart in the same way. In just one short week, he has filled my heart with love and hope. In one week, I have felt more loved and wanted than I ever have. I love him with more than I thought I had to give.

It is one week that may change my life forever. And the story is just starting. :)