The spermcicle has arrived

So, delivery number 2 has arrived....fresh frozen sperm. Somehow this delivery wasn't quite as exciting as the first one. The first delivery was the first time I could tangibly picture what I was trying to do. It was novel. It was exciting. It was scary. It was funny. This time, I knew what to expect, what to look for and how real this process is. Even though it has been just 3 months since my last try, there have been some changes for me. One...I'm venturing (however slowly and timidly) into the "dating" world again. For now, it's been mostly online but it is a start. Second, I've become much more open about the whole process...perfect strangers have been told about my adventures with this. Third, I realized that I need to accept that if this doesn't work that I need to keep moving and make a different plan. With the idea that this process might not work the first few times I am approaching this round with some skepticism. I have a plan that if it doesn't work this time that I might have to do something a little more drastic to prepare my body for conceiving and carrying a baby. I don't want to go into details yet, but the plan B is good for my overall health as well as improving my conception chances. I also have more to consider this time as I have met someone that I am very excited about. It might be too early to tell where things are going with him, but I'm excited none the less. He has been well informed about this whole process and to my surprise, had even offered to help in any capacity he can. (Let's not discuss specifics about that here...it is a little too TMI even for me.) And while he seems fine with this, it does make me think that maybe this might not be my only opportunity to have a child. Yet, I also know that it is too early to tell what can happen and I don't want to deny myself the chance of being a parent because I've waited too long for "Mr. Right" or "the perfect time". So, the spermcicle sits in my living room in its frozen home until I get the double blue line telling me its time to inseminate. Thanks for all your support and love and good wishes. I appreciate it more than you can know.